Saturday, December 15, 2007

a series of short comments on my situation in life

I am excruciatingly content with life right now. It's the first time in a long time that I've been so... at peace with everything that's happening.

Most integral to my current state of mind (I think) is that my constant companions, restlessness and wanderlust, have been temporarily held at bay thanks to a recent trip to Israel, Egypt, and Jordan. Exploration of the holy land was the best thing that could have happened to me at this point in my life, when I felt like I was starting to flounder and lose sight of things that are important in favor of things that were definately less so. And now, with a renewed perspective and stronger will to love God above all else, I've had more peace in my soul over the past month than any time in recent memory.

My current employment is uncertain, but it's a good thing, and has (for the most part) added to my contentedness. I've been getting more and more uneasy there over the past month or two because a combination of two things: bad leadership and the growing knowledge that there's something bigger to seek. Again, I "blame" my trip to israel. Going to work was just... different after I got home. I felt no purpose in it, and for someone who's very used to moving forward with purpose, that quickly became unbearable. And so, I've given my notice, and I'm waiting for guidance as to where I should go next.

My family life is good. I (still) love my parents, who just got home from London tonight, and my brother is coming home for Christmas for two weeks. I haven't seen him for several months, and am always glad to spend time with him.

A couple of months ago I moved into a townhouse with a friend from work and her friend from college. We have ample space, a cat named oliver who is very, very silly, and a 70s 'boom-boom-room' in our basement. The house is warm (when we remember to turn on the heat), the roof doesn't leak (now that our pipes have been fixed), and my bed is more comfortable than your bed.

Finally, for two weeks now, I've been the happy girlfriend of a wonderful man who compliments my psyche in (at least seemingly) every way I could hope. He makes me laugh, he has quiet strength coupled with a gentle presence, and he's a man of God. He's the first guy I've ever met who will spend a half hour with me doing nothing else besides playing with my/his cat (anyone who knows me at all will know that's important!).... And he is, of course, quite handsome :)

Anyhow. That's me, for now. Lots of changes, all in good ways.



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